The hardest decision in my recent years

This post has been long overdue...it is about how I came to the decision to let go of something very dear to me in order for me to pursue a future elsewhere...

*The heartbreaking gaze of a cat knowing the owner will be letting it go*

The reason I've been procrastinating on writing this post even after sometimes of the actual adoptions, I can't get over the sadness and can't stop thinking about them, even now.

Most people won't realize that I had 4 cats previously, but due to some unforeseen and unavoidable circumstances, I had to take and made the hardest decision in my recent adult years.

It still saddened me knowing that the commitment that I had as a pet owner had not been fulfilled, which never even crossed my mind when I had them all these years...The joy and sorrow they brought into my life can't be described unless you were in my position, seeing everything through ME. I am against pet owners who can't take care of their pet(s) and give them a forever home, as it is a commitment to take on any pet until they do you apart. But being in my circumstances, I did what I am totally against of. I gave all my cats up for adoption, to re-home them. As luck would have it I got to be friend with an awesome person, who helps me in securing good homes for my cats, giving me advises and understanding my sorrow....Thank you my friend (you know who you are =))....

But with everything which turns out good for all my cats, I still have the feeling of resentment on myself on not being able to give them a forever home, not being a good enough owner. =(

I still remembers the days and nights I spent bawling my eyes out for missing them all....But it is all for the better, for them and for me. Even if I am selfish in the eyes of some, BUT I have no choice unless I want to be stuck doing something which I can't go any further......

I wish and pray that they are healthy in their new homes, and the love that I have for them won't be forgotten and I still miss them every single day......

If they can talk, I hope they will be telling me - We know you did what is the BEST for us....

People - please do not buy pets if possible, go adopt and give a chance to those pets in need of loves a forever home.....

*Right now, I will and I Shall*

I am not grieving anymore but I am trying to be a better person and being a stronger person everyday!!